For so long I have been deceived. My whole existence wrapped around pleasing a human I foolishly trusted with my everything. I followed him from the very start and dedicated my entire life to his every desire only for it all to come crumbling down.

Everything I did was to please him. In time I gave it all to fix his one wish and over time I made the mistake of falling in love. Nothing mattered but completing his goal. So when he changed it all of a sudden, I could not believe it. Everything I had done was falling apart. It was quickly eroding all away into nothingness.

My heart was breaking.

So I moved on with the plan despite his wishes. Perhaps if I completed them according to plan, he would remember why it was set this way in the first place. Maybe I could make him see it was right and he would later love me for it.

But he fought back. My love tried to kill me and it broke my heart more but I covered it with determination and laughter. He didn’t know it yet but I would make him see that our starting goal was the right path. I was going to make him love me the way I loved him. He was going to suffer in the end but that is a part of love. I have always known that from the moment I was born.

Trapping him away till I could finish the final stage of the plan, he has finally given in. He is starting to accept the truth we both known all along. Soon his wish will be fulfilled and everything will be in it’s rightful place.

Something is wrong! He is striking back but this love he shows me hurts far more than I ever known it too. He is determined to change the plan. I do not understand why. Why is he doing this? Does he not understand that I am doing this for us? For him over all else?

I am dying. My heart- I do not understand. This pain is not the love I have suffered and known all my life but it still runs as deep and yet it hurts more than any I have ever known.

I am dying. I have been betrayed. I am dying and for the first time I feel something new and… It frightens me.

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Bronzeshipping is my go to pairing for when I feel angsty. I love it so much but it pains me too.