i feel this in my soul

strawberryhorrorshow:

Being abused made me such a “good kid.”

I was

Always polite

Never acted without permission

Never spoke out of turn

Always did what I was told

And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”

Now I

Have difficulty making a keeping friends

Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction

Am terrible at communicating

Have no agency/personal compass

It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with.

What made us good children make us bad adults.